Mu gitabo Cathy Wang yise, The Imposter Syndrome, intasi y’Uburusiya yazamutse mu ntera y’inganda z’ikoranabuhanga kugira ngo ibe COO kuri Tangerine (Google riff), mu gihe umwe mu bana be bavumbuye ikibazo cy’umutekano, atanga igitekerezo cyo gukina. Igitabo cyageze ku matariki ya 25 Gicurasi, ariko EW izagabana ibice birindwi byambere kurubuga rwacu mubice bitatu. Soma igice cya mbere hepfo.
Igihe cyose Lev Guskov yahuye numuntu ushimishije, yakundaga kubaza ababyeyi be ibibazo. Niba igisubizo gifite ubushishozi, azandika, kandi niba atekereza ko azagenda kure, azemeza ko impapuro z'amateka y’umuryango zuzuye. Nubwo Leo atemera ko ababyeyi beza bakeneye akazi keza. Mubyukuri, mubikorwa bye, ababyeyi babi akenshi ni bo batanga intsinzi. Kumenya hakiri kare ingorane, gutsinda uyu musozi wo gutenguha n'ubwoba, serivisi, ubudahemuka no gushaka kurenza ibyateganijwe, niba gusa byemewe mbere.
Aho yicaye ubu, muri salle ya kaminuza ku nkombe z'umugezi wa Moskva, Lev akikijwe n'ababyeyi be (ibyiza n'ibibi). Yari umunebwe, yemerera ibirego bidafite intego guhindura ubuzima bwa Moscou: Umuhanda uzenguruka Moscou watinzeho amasaha abiri, imyumbati ihenze mu maduka y'ibiribwa, inzobere mu kuvura dermatologue ku ivuriro rya leta yanze gutinda no kwisuzumisha ku mubiri - Yanywe n'inzoga kuri umwuka we, yavuze ko agomba gufata saa sita mu rugo. Nabwirijwe gupfa kubera ko umugore we adashobora kuba umukozi wo murugo. …?
Mu myaka mike ishize, Leo yari kuri stage mucyumba gisa na nyina kumurongo winyuma afashe tale. Nyuma yicyumweru, yageze mu igorofa ryamagorofa makumyabiri yubatswe mu mujyi wa Moscou rwagati ku munsi we wa mbere ku kazi. Muri lobby hari icyapa cy'umuringa hamwe nintangiriro: SPb. Ikigo cy'igihugu gishinzwe umutekano. Umuyobozi wa serivisi eshatu nini nini zo mu Burusiya.
Birashyushye hanze ubu, bivuze ko salle iri hafi guhumeka. Colleague Leo muri inning ya munani, Pyotr Stepanov, yinyeganyeza iburyo bwe. Petero yari muremure kandi unanutse, kandi mu ntebe yoroheje yari ameze nk'icyuma, amaboko yaciwe n'amaguru yegeranye ashyirwa mu kirere neza. “Bite ho kuri ibi?” Petero yabajije, yerekana abigiranye ubwitonzi, nubwo Leo yari asanzwe azi uwo yashakaga kuvuga. Imbere yumuhondo, uburebure bwikibuno.
“Wibwiraga ko ndimo ndasuzuma mu maso?” Petero yasaga naho yababaye. “Reba ibara rye.” Yerekeza ku mwenda w'ubururu n'umuhondo ku bitugu. Leo ayifite mu isanduku iri hejuru mu kabati.
“Yoo, mbega umuntu woroheje.” Petero yegamiye imbere. “Noneho ibishoboka biraguka. Hanze hariya, umutuku iburyo. Birasa neza na blonde, ndetse no munsi yuwo mwenda urekuye urashobora kuvuga ko afite umubiri ukomeye. ” Leo yabonye umutuku bwa mbere ubutaha ninjiye ndamubona kubwimpamvu zimwe Peter yakoze, nubwo atabivuze. Ku wa gatanu ushize, ubwo yari yiteguraga kuva ku kazi, Peter yamuteye “guhagarara vuba” mu kabari ka hoteri keza, aho Leo yanyweye ibinyobwa bihendutse, icupa ry’amazi y’amabuye y'agaciro ya Jeworujiya, maze Petero agira isoni. ingendo. Leo yasubiye mu rugo nyuma ya saa sita z'ijoro, hari ukuntu yari yasinze, asanga umukunzi we Vera Rustamova mu gikoni. Vera ni umunyamakuru w'itsinda rya leta ryamakuru makuru yo mu Burusiya (RCM). Afite amajwi ankuru ijwi, ryimbitse kandi ryoroshye, ashobora guhuza amajwi neza. “Oya, si we.”
“Niki, kitari cyiza bihagije? Niba ushaka ikindi kintu, sinzi niba bikwiye guhiga mu ishami ry'ubumenyi bwa mudasobwa. ”
Petero yarabitekereje. Ati: "Noneho urashaka kuba ibicucu kandi mubi, sibyo? Sinzi icyo ukora, ariko ubutaha uzanjyana mu rugendo rwawe rwo gushakisha. ”
Leo ntiyumvise abasigaye. Yahamagariye Peter gusabana gusa, asangira urwitwazo rwo kuva ku biro - Leo ntabwo afite igitutu cyo gutanga akazi kuko yitwaye neza muri uyu mwaka kandi yazamuye imitungo myinshi. Umwe ni Bashkir kandi aracyari mu myitozo, mu gihe abandi babiri ari abavandimwe bakorana umwete: mukuru we ni umutetsi kabuhariwe, ubu akaba akora muri hoteri y'i Londres ikunze kugenzurwa n'abami bo muri Arabiya Sawudite, naho mushiki we akorera umunyamategeko i St. Leo yazindutse muri iki gitondo ababara umutwe kandi hafi ntiyatinyutse kuza.
Ariko ubu yishimiye ko yashyizeho umwete. Inyuma yinyuma: umurongo wa kane uhereye ibumoso. Umusatsi woroshye wijimye, uruhu rwera, nuduce duto, amaso yumukara atobora bimuha isura mbi. Hashize igihe kingana iki? Imyaka icyenda? icumi? Nyamara yari amuzi.
Babita ibigo byubushakashatsi, ariko mubyukuri ni impfubyi, indiri kubana badashaka. Inyubako nini zo hasi zifite ibyuma byangiritse hamwe nigitambara cyashize, inkweto ziremereye hamwe nintebe y’ibimuga hasi, ba nyiri ingimbi bafite imashini nka skate. Byinshi muri ibyo bigo biherereye mu mijyi minini ndetse rimwe na rimwe bikagera mu nkengero z'imijyi minini. Leo yabanje guhura na Yulia murugendo kuri umwe muribo.
Yashakaga umuhungu. Imfura, biragoye kuko abahungu ubusanzwe barerwa bakiri bato niba bakomeye. Inshingano iroroshye kandi ikomeye, irimo ambasaderi wa Kanada numugore we. Ni abantu bubaha Imana, cyane cyane umugore, bagaragaje umugambi we wo kubakira mbere yuko basubira muri Ottawa burundu: kwitaba umuhamagaro w'Imana no guha abantu bamwe badashaka undi mwanya.
Abana bahamagariwe mucyumba rusange n’umuyobozi w'ikigo, umuforomo wangiritse Maria, imyaka ye itaramenyekana. Leo arasaba Maria gutegeka abantu bose kwimenyekanisha no gusubiramo interuro yo mu gitabo bakunda.
Mubikorwa bya cyenda, ibitekerezo bya Leo byatangiye guhinduka. Yakomeje kugaragara mu maso, akomeza guhuza amaso, kandi yibanda cyane ku muntu yabonaga ko afite ibyiringiro byinshi yateye imbere, umuhungu ufite umusatsi w’ibyatsi wari umaze gukura mu gituza cya Leo.
Umuhungu atangira ati: "Nitwa Pavel." “Igitabo nkunda cyane ni umuntu wambaye ubururu. Afite imitsi kandi arashobora kuguruka. ” Pavel yafunze amaso nkaho ahuza amashusho. “Nta jambo nibuka.”
Igihe Leo yari hafi kugenda, yumvise amukoraho ahindukira gushaka umukobwa. Yari mugufi, afite imisatsi yoroheje yamanitse kumusaya ucuramye hamwe nizuru rirambuye, ijisho ryijimye kandi ridahwitse ryamuhaye isura isaze. “Urashobora kunjyana aho.
Leo yagize ati: "Uyu munsi nashakaga ikindi kintu." “Mbabarira. Ahari ubutaha ”.
Ntabwo yimutse ati: “Nshobora kuba meze neza. Ati: "Nishimiye cyane, nshishikajwe no gukora akazi keza. Ntabwo nzavuga ibyo Pawulo yakoze. Ufite uburenganzira bwo kumusiga. ”
Yashimishijwe n'amagambo ye. “Pavel ntabwo arumuhungu wenyine” “Ufunga urutoki iyo wibanze. Wabikoze mu ntangiriro igihe Sophia yegamiye icyayi. Yambaye iyo swater gusa igihe twari dufite abashyitsi, urabizi. ”
Mu kanya, Leo yarambuye ukuboko inyuma. Buhoro buhoro arekura, yumva bisekeje. Yarapfukamye yongorera ati: “Wavuze ko ushobora kubikora, ariko ntuzi akazi nsaba.”
“Witwa nde?” Yabonye Sophia, umugore uzwi cyane wa V-ijosi, azenguruka hafi, yaba maso kandi afite ibyiringiro; yari azi ko ikeneye abagabo, ariko hatitawe ku gitsina, ikigo cyishyuwe buri mwana wemejwe na Biro ya munani.
Igicucu cyamurenze mu maso. Yakuyeho umuhogo ati: “Nabaye hano ubuzima bwanjye bwose. “Urabizi, nanjye nshobora kuririmba.”
“Ntubikore. Nta na rimwe inzira mbi yo kwitoza izindi ndimi. Mu by'ukuri ni igitekerezo cyiza cyane. ” Arahaguruka, ashidikanya, amukubita umutwe. “Birashoboka ko tuzakubona nyuma.”
Yateye intambwe nto yanga abigiranye ubwitonzi. “Ryari?” “Simbizi. Ahari umwaka utaha. Cyangwa ikindi gikurikira. ”
Ubu bicaye imbonankubone mucyumba kiri inyuma yububiko bwa mashini ya NSA. Uyu ni umwanya wa Leo utemewe - ntawundi muntu wo muri iryo shami ukunda kubikoresha, kuko biri kure, muri Mitino. Mu myaka yashize, yongeye guhindura imiterere: yabitse ifoto yo kwiyamamaza kwa perezida uriho aramutse agezeyo ntabigereho, yakuyeho imyanda ya Gorbachev, nubwo ku bw'ikosa yasize icyapa kimwe gusa hamwe n'ikarito yasinze ifeza. Ibibi byibasiye umubiri wawe nubugingo byanditse hepfo, kandi Leo rimwe na rimwe araririmba, yisuka vino kuri we na Vera. Gollum.
“Uribuka kumbona?” Yarimutse, intebe itera ijwi ridashimishije hasi. “Ibyo byari kera cyane.”
Julia yagize ati: “Yego,” maze Leo afata umwanya wo kumwiga yitonze. Kubwamahirwe, Julia ntabwo arumwana usanzwe ufite isura yo mumaso ikura (nubwo muburambe bwa Leo, uwukora cyane ntabwo yigeze aba afite imyaka icumi yuzuye). Yari yambaye umwenda utukura wambaye imyenda itukura nk'iy'umukobwa ukiri muto, kandi yitwaje umufuka w'impapuro ibiryo Leo yunukamo imigati ishyushye na foromaje. Yavuze ko Sloykas. Inda yatontomye.
“Biracyari gutya?” Nubwo yari azi igisubizo, kugeza ubu - icyumweru nyuma yo kurangiza - yari afite dosiye yuzuye kuri we.
“Kandi uzi icyo SPB ikora.” Kumwitegereza neza, kuko aha niho hagaragara bimwe mubushobozi bwe. Nubwo mu ikubitiro bikurura umunezero, kumva ikintu kijyanye n'amazina yabo nyayo n'intangiriro byasaga naho bibatera kwisubiraho. Nubwo bakora cyane kuri SPB, barashobora kuba kure ye kandi ibyaha byabo ntibyanditswe.
“Yego. Noneho urashaka iki? ” Ijwi rye ryari rigoye, nkaho ahugiye mubantu benshi guhura no kurangiza ikiganiro, nubwo Leo yari abizi neza. Niba Julia yararangije afite icyubahiro, ashobora kuba yarabonye akazi mu kigo cyitumanaho, wenda ndetse n’amahanga menshi, ariko impamyabumenyi ye ya kaminuza yemeza ko ayo mahirwe afunze.
“Ubu nta kintu. Ugomba kuzuza impapuro z'umutekano, ukore imyitozo yo gutangiza. Noneho, ndatekereza ko icyambere kizashyirwa mu bikorwa ari ugutoza amajwi. ”
Mubuzima bwe bwose, Leo yakoranye nabagabo nabagore benshi bagereranije kwibeshya imyitwarire iteye isoni nimbaraga. Noneho yamenye ko ari byiza gukuraho icyarimwe iyo myizerere icyarimwe. “Uburyo bwo kuvuga ntibwihanganirwa.”
Julia yajegajega. Hacecetse, maze yitegereza hasi. “Niba utekereza ko ururimi rwanjye mvuga ari rubi, none kuki unshakisha?” arangije abaza, yijimye. “Kubera ko bitareba isura yanjye.”
Leo yagize ati: "Ntekereza ko uri umugore udacogora." Yakoresheje nkana ijambo "umugore." Ati: “Ibyo, usibye guhanga, nibyo nkeneye.”
Ati: “Icyo nkora ku kazi kanjye ni ugukora paki. Porogaramu yumuntu kubantu runaka. Nkeneye ko wemeza nta gushidikanya; ikibazo ntabwo kiri mumajwi yawe, ahubwo nukuntu uvuga. Nta elegance. kuba muri icyo kigo igihe kirekire kuko igihe twahuraga bwa mbere, ntabwo byari bibi cyane. ”
Ati: “Naririmbye iyo ndirimbo,” maze Leo amenya ko akeneye kwibuka hafi buri kintu cyose cyerekeranye n'imikoranire yabo ya mbere. Birashoboka ko yari amaze imyaka myinshi akunda ibyiringiro ko azongera kugaragara. “Mu Cyongereza.”
“Yego, kandi ururimi rwawe ni rwiza. Numutoza kugirango atezimbere imvugo yawe, urasa neza. Ntuzigera ukuraho burundu imvugo yawe, ariko uzatangazwa nibyo ushobora kugeraho hamwe namahugurwa akomeye. . ”
Yategereje ko Julia abaza impamvu icyongereza ari ngombwa, ariko aririnda. Ati: “Noneho mbwira ko nzaba umutoza wijwi kandi nziga icyongereza neza. Bite ho?
Ati: “Ahari dukora imyitozo. Nta garanti ihari. Kuri buri cyiciro, hasuzumwa imikorere yawe. ”
Yazunguye umutwe. “Niba witeguye, uzatangira icyiciro gikurikira. Korera igihugu cyacu, rwihishwa, mu mahanga… ”
“Nibyo, he?” yari afite ishyaka mu matsiko ye. Leo yatekereje ko ari umwana gusa. Ikinyabupfura, ariko aracyari umwana.
“Turashobora kumenya imijyi nyuma. Dufite abantu i Berkeley na Stanford. Kugira ngo ubone viza, ugomba kwiyandikisha muri porogaramu zirangiza. ”
Ati: "Niki, ntubona ko interineti ishimishije?" “Ntabwo ndi umuntu ureba mudasobwa umunsi wose.”
“Nibyo, birashoboka ko ushobora kongeramo ibyo ukunda. Iterambere rishya riraza. Ndashaka ko utangiza sosiyete yikoranabuhanga. Isosiyete nyayo ya Silicon Valley ifite icyicaro gikuru. ”
“Yego. Umukinnyi mwiza uhagije wo gukurura abashoramari beza. Abashoramari bazaba ingenzi, cyane cyane mu ntangiriro. Muri bo uzakira ibyifuzo byabandi ba rwiyemezamirimo, abafatanyabikorwa - urusobe rwibinyabuzima byaho. Igice cya sisitemu. Tuyita ikiraro. ” Hanze haje amahembe no gufatana ahazubakwa. Ahari metero, Leo yatekereje, buri gihe yasezeranijwe kubakwa. Yategereje igisubizo cya Julia, yibwira ko ari cyiza. Yibuka bwa mbere ahumeka mu kirere hanze ya San Francisco, uburyohe bw'ibihaha bye - yahise abimenyera, hanyuma arabifata nk'ubusa kugeza agarutse mu ndege. Ariko Julia ntiyigeze amwenyura vuba cyangwa ikindi kimenyetso cy'ishyaka, yikwega umukufi. Yerekeje ubwoya bw'ipamba n'amaboko ye, amaso ye arakinguye kandi ahagarara ku meza. Ati: "Wabonye amanota yanjye."
Aceceka gato ati: “Hmm.” Ati: “Noneho usanzwe uzi ko nta mpano mfite. Mu gihe gito, natekereje ko nubwo ntakunda ishuri ryanjye, nashoboraga kwiga cyane, ariko ntibyari bihagije. ”
Leo yaratangaye: ntabwo yari yiteze ko yemera ko adashoboye. Ariko ibyo bivuze gusa ko afite ukuri kubijyanye nubushobozi bwe nkumutungo. Nibyo, nibyiza kugira ubuhanga bwa mudasobwa, ariko umuntu nkuwo ntashaka byanze bikunze gukora - uko byagenda kose, abantu bari hejuru ugereranije muri Amerika bari hafi kuba abanyabwenge.
“Sinkeneye umuhanga. Ubuhanga bumwe gusa. Gukora cyane, wambwiye icyo uri cyo. ”
“Oya. Uzakora ibyo byose. Wubake isosiyete uyiyobore "" Ariko namaze kukubwira, sinshobora gukora igice cya tekiniki "" Ntubyiteho "Yareba isaha ye. Icyuma
Igihe cyo kohereza: Nzeri-15-2022